Happy 9th month!

My daughter celebrated her 9th month birthday yesterday. She's growing up so fast!

Isn't she a lovely little girl? :D I love you very very much, baby!

New Colors!

It is almost two years since my husband and I moved back to his home base because paying for rent is taking a toll on our finances. Plus, I developed a sort of "postpartum depression" right after we lost our first baby so it was better for us to move and be with family.  

We had to have the 1st floor of their home renovated to accommodate me and, well, my stuff. We had no budget so we had to work things out to be able to make our place "livable". It was a difficult time - we became so broke - but eventually we were able to move in as scheduled. The outcome of the renovation did not turn out as I expected it to be. But it had to do. We needed a place to stay.

Fast forward to today.  My husband and I decided to take two weeks leave off from work to take care our baby while my mom is away.  We had no plans since it was an unexpected move.  But my husband had a bright idea and decided to continue what was supposed to be done and finished 1 1/2 years ago - paint our home.  Yes, our home remained unpainted for almost two years because we didn't have the time and money to hire a professional to do it.  We thought that doing it ourselves would only mess it up.  But then my husband got the idea from her mom who was painting her own bedroom by herself.  So we bought some paint and brushes last week and my husband immediately started to work as soon as we got home. 

Now he is halfway done.  He painted our walls with cream colored paint and a royal blue accent wall.  It's not flawless since this is just DIY.  But it looks like new.  And it's beautiful.  

I am thankful that I am surrounded by the positive colors that lift up my spirit.  And I am thankful for my husband who made it all possible. 

And now I call it... The Gratitude Project

It has been a while.

It's 11pm and I'm wide awake. My husband and daughter are sleeping. I don't mind staying up late since we are already on leave; there's no pressure to wake up early. 

It has been a while.

A few years back, I decided to create this blog so I can express my ramblings and rants freely without having anyone suffer with the endless and sometimes irrational feedback that I always say. It's like my sounding board; my shoulder to cry on; my personal psychologist. All my opinions and feelings are freely expressed here, and these are my opinions that I don't have the guts to tell anyone personally. I have no intention of letting any of my friends know about this blog since, as I have said, I don't want anyone to suffer reading through all that useless crap. 

But I never got to writing more than 5 posts. But that doesn't mean that I am now living a peaceful and problem-free life. Well sure, I am more than happy with my husband and my daughter, who is growing up to be a very healthy and beautiful daughter.  But, you know, life, it's not easy.  It has constantly presented us with challenges and obstacles that,without the help and motivation of my loving husband, I would have completely lost it. I never got to write in here again because... well, I don't know.  I just forgot about it?  

Anyway, fast forward to today and I have decided (while taking a shower - yes, as in all life-changing decisions are usually made while in the shower) to revive this blog and rename it "The Gratitude Project".  The obstacles and challenges are continuously being hurled at us and, as everyone would agree, it would be too draining if I always focus entirely on the negative. Believe me, for me, it is not an easy feat. It is VERY DIFFICULT! But I need to shift my state of mind - something that I should have done YEARS ago - and I believe this would be a start. Instead of writing about the bad, write about the good.  Not only would writing about the things that I am thankful for make me feel better during the difficult times, but in the future, I, along with my family, would reread my posts and say "yeah, we had fun!"